Friday was a bit boring. My Christmas sucked, but I got over it. I only got the kids for a couple of hours on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. That was the first time in 7 years that none of my kids have ever spent Christmas Eve away from me. And, like I said, it sucked big time. I was glad to have someone to spend Christmas Eve with tho. I spent Christmas Eve with BK and it felt pretty good. I was glad I didn't have to spend it alone. Christmas Day was rushed too, and I didn't like it! I didn't have enough time to spend with the kids. I was upset....but again, BK made me feel pretty good. You-know-who & I had a fun time on Friday. We kept emailing back & forth & had some good laughs....read it for yourself! :)

How 'bout you just send me home instead? :)

um nope

Why not? :)

I dunno, sometimes I feel like being a pain in the ass.

But you were never a "pain" in my ass! :P hehehe

LOL........stop it. Your bringing back memories that I'm not sure I can handle. WOW......didn't need to think about that right now.

Sorry, couldn't help that one.....Didn't mean for anything "bad" to come of it....just trying to brighten your day! :)

LOL Nothing bad has ever COME of it. I just don't want to think about something I can't have. ;-)

OMG!!!!! You're right, nothing bad ever CAME of it!!! IT WAS ALLLLL GOOD!!! :D You could have it, don't think you can't....just not at this point in your life.....

Can you say Ironic? I want it, so do you, but we can't. Ain't life wonderful sometimes?

Yeah I can......I want it, you want it, we can have, we CHOOSE not to....There's a difference....It's called respect! :) Life is wonderful when you're with the one you love.....

Yes it is. R-E-S-P-E-C-T-

And I'm respecting your wishes...as much as it hurts, it's the right thing thing to do. All I want is for you to be happy. No matter what choices you make!!! :)

Well believe it or not, I want you to be happy. I realize that I can't make you and my wife happy at the same time. But please understand I still want you to be happy.

I know you do....And I know you can't. I just wish there were 2 of you. One for her & one for me! I want to be happy too....but....ya know.......

Well, I know it's the not the same, but go get a B.O.B.

I don't want one! :P If I can't have the real thing, I don't want it at all......besides, I do a much better job myself than one of those things would! :P :D

OMG.....Well......if it's any consulation, I think most everyone falls into that catagory. You know what they say about dogs and why they lick themselves? BECAUSE THEY CAN........

You're damn right!!! hehehee And if I could lick myself.................well, we won't get into that....

LOL That makes two of us. Oh well, maybe you at least have some great memories to help you out in that situation.

Well, I went over to his desk & talked to him for a little while about things and told him I was glad we could laugh and talk about things that happened in the past. He was too. He's not only my true love, my soulmate, he's one of my best friends. If you can't talk & joke with your friends, you might as well give 'em up. We talked for a good 45 minutes & I got "That look" in my eye that I always get when I talk to him. He asked me what I was thinking....I told him I couldn't tell him, but I would email him.

What am I thinking? Do you really need to ask me that??? You KNOW me well enough by now........

Tell me

Tell you.......well... I just keep having these visuals and they're pretty good...Fun with friends..... :D

Details woman, I need details

I'd rather show than tell............. :D hehehe

Maybe next week.......Damn I hate when my inside voice talks out loud.

WOW! OK!!!! (HUGE SIGH!!!) Let's just say I'm ready not only to bless America but have a little bit of United & States. :)

GOD BLESS AMERICA, Makes me want to stand at attention and salute.

Ok...you stand at attention & salute & I'll put this 6 gauge to good use! :-O

Only if I can return the favor.

You know you can.... :)~ PHEW!!!

You know I will......Are you really ready to get your ass licked?

Are you speaking figuratively or literally????? :D LMAO BTW, this caramel apple sucker is getting really small really quickly! :)

OMG Stop it. Um in answer to your question..........BOTH


I don't wanna stop....that's the problem (well, it's not a problem, but you know what I mean).......ok, HELL YEAH I'm ready! :P hehehe

la la la la......sorry just getting my tongue into the grove.

OMG!!!! Don't start!!! :P

Why?

Bcuz I'm getting visuals.... :)~

la la la la la, oh that was nice, la la la la la la, wow I like that, la la la la la la

Well, I just made short work of that lollipop! :D Now I need something else to suck on.....any suggestions? :)

I'm sure if you start on the east coast, before you know it you'll be on the west coast........but then again, we shouldn't underestimate the size and pwer of the United States.

Yeah, it shouldn't take me long to get on the west coast....but the United States has a lot of power and if I'm not careful, I might get "blown away"..... :) (Or you would for that matter!)

The United States have never blown up anyone without first being blown.

Is that right? HMMMMM....Boy I'd like to blow the United States.....

Yeah they need to be worked over now and then.

Needless to say, we're having a lot of fun conversations now. I'm glad I can talk to him "normally" now. I'm glad things are good between us again. It makes me feel good that I can talk to him again. :) I missed talking to him ..... REALLY talking to him like I could before all the shit happened. I miss him terribly, but there's nothing I can do about that. I am just glad things are how they are now. I left shortly after that conversation was over, as his family was here --- they were heading to Utah to help his parents move. ¶ 10:00:00 AM