OK, OK, OK....I've changed my mind. My final thought is null & void. I LOVE THAT MAN AND I WILL WAIT FOR HIM FOREVER!!! What made me change my mind? I dunno...I really don't. I guess my mind fluctuates as much as the ocean in a storm. We had such an awesome time yesterday. I met him for lunch at the Brownstone and talked about the weekend. I miss him terribly. :( But I'll be ok. If we can get through this -- we can get through anything!

I surmise that we were horny or something at lunchtime, bcuz we ate really fast and then drove to "our spot!" It had only been 18 days. But neither of us went that long when he was in Cd'A. We had our fan-fukn-tastic phone sex!! The only thing that beats fan-fukn-tastic phone sex is fan-fukn-tastic, hardcore, sweatin' pig sex! LMMFAO :) Godamnsumbitchwhore! That was a well needed pounding. Albeit short, definately well needed. And damn, it was good. :) Something we both needed! And what we both wanted! WOW!!! Needless to say I was "full" a few minutes later! :)

I guess I thought that he would forget about me and not want to be with me, but during an email he sent me, that thought exited my head, never to enter again.....BUT, before I get to that, a little background so you can understand...he passed a kidney stone this weekend and was a little on the sore side. I know how he felt! TRUST ME! I've given birth 3 times! He wasn't sure if it would hurt him or not. I told him just having lunch would be fine. I didn't care what we were doing, as long as I was with him. He told me to just plan for lunch -- WHICH WAS FINE WITH ME! I didn't want him to hurt any more than he already was. He was concerned however -- "Well.....lets just plan on lunch. I just don't want you thinking I don't want to be with you." Those were his exact words.

I just don't want you thinking I don't want to be with you.

What the hell else does that man need to say for me to realize HE WON'T FORGET ME. So, it's official - that thought has exited my mind! Damn the General's gonna be happy! LMMFAO! He's the one that has told me that from day 1. I love you too General! :)

So Nate & I will take it one day at a time. That's all we can do.

I LOVE YOU NATHAN GEORGE MAW
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