I'm a dumbass -- plain & simple -- a DUMBASS!!! I was a dumbshit too! WTF was I thinking? Ok -- here's the story..... I printed out my blogs bcuz Nate was leaving & I wanted to pull some things out of them to write on his card. I put them in a folder and took them home. Well, I forgot to bring the folder back to work and guess who found it? YOU GOT IT! BK! She found it and read everything I have ever written up until today. OMFG! She was ready to kill me. She didn't know what I was up to and I sure as hell didn't tell her. The folder was sitting on the coffee table in the living room. I forgot to take it to work and was going to go home and get it at lunch time. She got home before my lunch was here and she found them and read them..........

bknight2477 (1:14:30 PM): So you fucked Nate on the the 27th huhDid you fuck him in my bed?
cndyaz2002 (1:14:59 PM): WHAT?
bknight2477 (1:15:27 PM): Don't what me. I'm sitting hear reading your emails you printed out
bknight2477 (1:15:46 PM): I have half a mind to share them with his wife
bknight2477 (1:15:57 PM): In fact I want to go make copies
bknight2477 (1:16:11 PM): You are so fucking out of here
bknight2477 (1:16:21 PM): I hope he will support you
cndyaz2002 (1:16:22 PM): I'M ON A CALL...PLEASE HOLD ON.
bknight2477 (1:17:08 PM): Did you fuck him in my bed?
bknight2477 (1:17:14 PM): Did you fuck him in my bed?
bknight2477 (1:17:18 PM): Did you fuck him in my bed?
bknight2477 (1:17:31 PM): Probably
bknight2477 (1:17:39 PM): you trashy bitch
cndyaz2002 (1:17:40 PM): I'M ON A CALL...PLEASE HOLD ON.
bknight2477 (1:17:48 PM): I am going to make copies
bknight2477 (1:17:52 PM): she needs to know
cndyaz2002 (1:18:01 PM): THAT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.
bknight2477 (1:18:07 PM): You are going to feel how it feel to hurt now
bknight2477 (1:18:23 PM): I have her phone number right here
cndyaz2002 (1:18:30 PM): I'LL BE THERE SHORTLY.
bknight2477 (1:18:33 PM): I'm sure she would love to hear from me
cndyaz2002 (1:18:43 PM): I'LL BE THERE SHORLY.

WHOOPS! That was not a pretty fight. I went home and she just thrashed & thrashed on me. Which, I can't say that I blame her. She had every right to do so. But, she should have never gone through my stuff. She would have never have gone through this if she did. Ah well, it is in the past. We've moved on. I hurt her badly, but she always knew that he was the one for me. We cried a lot that day. I told her how sorry I was -- that I shouldn't have done what I did. But we're ok now. We take it one day at a time. That's all we can do. ¶ 1:04:00 PM