Don't know why things happen the way they do, I just know they happen.  Nate & I spent some time together on Tuesday and I asked him about things.  I told him I have been hearing stories about him having a new "chew toy" over at Qwest.  He asked me who I heard it from and all I would tell him is that it was from a reputable source.  He told me that he didn't have any new "chew toys" at Qwest.  He told me I was the only "other" one in his life.  Honestly, it wouldn't matter to me if he had a new one or not.  I love the man, but as I've stated before, I ain't puttin' my heart in it again.  He said to me, "Think about it, if I had a new 'chew toy', do you really think I would be here??"  Good question...I'd like to think he doesn't have a new toy, but I just really don't know.  Neither party has a reason to lie to me, but which one is?  Or is it just other people's perceptions of what they "think" is going on?  That's the only thing I can think of.  A lot of people read more into things than what's really going on.  So I guess we'll wait and see. 

Things at work suck.  It's just all going down hill so fast it's not even funny.  People are like -- Is it August yet?  -- Which is when Qwest is going to be hiring again.  (So we hear, and HOPE!)  There are a few people that I know of that have decided to leave Xerox and go over.....If I get a job offer, I'm going.  It's going to be a much better job in the long run.  All the bs & the politics that have come into effect in the last 3 weeks isn't worth this job.  They don't pay me enough to have to deal with all this shit.  It's getting to be a joke.  I used to like coming to work, now I have to come to work.  And I didn't feel this way until 3 weeks ago.  No one should feel that way about their job.  And it sucks to feel this way about a job.

Oh well, more later...............................
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