I can't deny that I love Nate. However, as hard as this is to say, I can only wait so long. I will continue to wait, until October 21, 2004. If he is not mine by then, alas, I will move on. I can only give so much before I can give no longer. It will be time to move on. I truly believe he is my one and only. I firmly believe he is my soulmate. I strongly believe we were meant for each other. However, I cannot wait forever. ¶ 5:47:00 PM

It's Memorial Day and I'm working. Couldn't pass up the opportunity to make $112 for today. :) The time has really gone quickly the last couple of weeks. I can't believe today marks 3 weeks since Nate has gone. I talked to him briefly on Monday the 17th when he started, and didn't hear from him until the 20th. It spooked me a little to be honest. I was afraid he was gone. But his phone call on the 20th changed my mind. :) I got him a card Thursday night (the 20th) and had General give it to him. That made things go a little easier. He called me on the 21st and whenever he could last week. He wanted to go to lunch last week, so I scheduled some time off on Thursday. I wanted to cry. I miss him so very much. He's all I ever think about anymore. The only time I've really "seen" him since he's been gone is watching him play football. And that's been ok. I just want to hold him in my arms and never let go. Granted - I might not get the chance soon, I will get the chance! And as God as my witness - I WILL NOT LET GO! Once I have him, I will never let him go. He is the one that is meant for me to truly love and spend the rest of my life with. I believe God put him on this Earth for me. He may not be mine at this moment, but he will be mine in the future -- forever! We went to lunch on Thurday and when he walked in the door I just wanted to cry. I miss him more than I ever thought I would. I remember that he was wearing jeans, his tan boots, his red University of Utah shirt and red hat. DAMN! HE LOOKS GOOD IN RED!!!!! I just wanted him right then & there -- screw lunch! hehehehe We ate & talked. He loves his new job. I am glad for him. He is trying out for a coach position, and I so hope he gets it. It will be a great opportunity for him if he does. And it will give us more than an hour when we wanna do "lunch"!!! I look forward to that! Which, by the way, cums tomorrow!!!!!! YAY! I've taken time off from 11:30 - 1:30 to get my groove on. He told me that he's about to pop. It's been 18 days (as of tomorrow) since we've done anything. That's about 18 days too long in my book. He told me he's ready to POP! I told him he had his choice of holes to POP in! :) He told me he'd POP in all 3. GOD BLESS YOU! :D LMMFAO I'm definately looking forward to tomorrow. I know he is as well.

Now onto the General -- not literally mind you! Dumbass is he, just like me! Had to spend 2 days in jail for something stupid -- no insurance. General, I hope you've learned your lesson. He went in at 6:00 Friday night and got out 6:00 Sunday night. Damn General - I know what it's like to be in there. Albeit, I was in the holding cell, but only for 7.5 hours, not 48. Thank the Lord! I feel for ya General. I just hope you never have to do that again! Hell, I hope I never have to do that again! I am glad he is back. I'll be over Wednesday!! And btw General, I LOVED your blog! I'm glad you weren't made into someone's bitch! Well, you'll always be my BITCH! :) LUV YA GENERAL!! ¶ 1:53:00 PM