What a fantastic afternoon! That was one of the best 2 hours of non-stop fukin I have had in a long time! It was fan-fukn-tastic. I had a blast. I also talked to him about losing him. I just stared at him & cried and he knew exactly what was wrong. He told me to enjoy him while he was here. I said, "that's what's wrong -- while you are here...you're not going to be here much longer." That's when he surprised me. He said that Qwest called him this morning and said that they want to hire their coaches internally. He said he was going to call them and find out for sure this afternoon. Part of me wants him to stay, but part of me wants him to go. ARGH!!!!!! LOL HELL, ALL OF ME WANTS HIM TO STAY!!!!!!! Ya know what I'm sayin'!!! He told me, "No more boobie faces!! You've got a naked man on your bed, a cock in your pussy, now get busy & ride!" I laughed & laughed. Thanks babe! I needed that! :-) LMMFAO He said he loved me. I so needed to hear that after what I was going through. I love that man. So we continued to fuk for another hour! We had a blast. Needless to say, he tried to blow my head off......didn't work -- I blew him instead! TWICE!!! >:) He loved every minute of it too! He just layed there.....like he was in heaven. (It's true...he told me that!) LOL I can't wait to do it again! And neither can he!

I can't wait to go to his football game on the 8th. He says that they will get killed, but have faith. They may, they may not, ya never know. General is going with me. He doesn't want to, but he is. For me. I love you General! :) General & I are good friends. I can tell him about anything and he still loves me. YAY! We're great friends. He kept telling me that NM won't leave me if he goes to Qwest. And ya know what, HE WAS RIGHT!!! But don't tell him that. He'll let it get to his head. Just kiddin' General -- I love ya! Anyway, back to the game. I am so very excited to go. I will have to pay for General admission into the game. WAAA-HOOOOOOO!!!! Can't wait to see that man in his uniform!!! YUMMY! He's sexy anyway, he'll just look that much better in uniform! :-) ¶ 3:34:00 PM

Today I get to spend some time with NM. I am excited. Any time I can spend with him, no matter what we do, I cherish. I can't wait to get my groove on. :-) That man rocks my world!! Last night I got to stay home with Kody instead of play pool. I was glad I got to. We try to read every night before bed time. I've found that he goes to bed much easier when we do read.

I am also sad. Many of my friends & co-workers are going to Qwest. Yes it is more money. I know they will do GREAT. I am sad to see them go. I don't know if I will be able to chat with them. :-( I am extremely sad that NM will go. He has his final interview this week. I'm sure he has the job. He is a great coach and has the skills to be great over there. I'm just afraid he'll leave me. I am going to talk about that with him today. I honestly, believe in my heart, he won't. But I am just scared. It's natural. But it will be good for him. He has the chance to earn more and provide more for his kids. I will support him in every decision he makes. No matter the hurt it causes me. He knows that and I know that. We've been down this road before. Our love is strong enough to survive! :)

More later when I return from my rendezvouz!!!!!!!!!>:) ¶ 9:39:00 AM