Well, it's Christmas Eve Day and where am I? At fuckin' WORK!!! Only in America, only in America!!! I am excited about tonight and spending the time with my family, but not looking forward to the fact that this is my first Christmas Eve in 7 years I have not had my kids with me. That sucks ass! I will pick up the kids for a few hours tonight and then tomorrow for most of the day. I have to work Friday, but will get them again on Saturday and Sunday. Then back to the ol' grindstone Monday for one hellacious day!!!! I have this feeling that Monday is going to be busy, busy, busy...and I sooo don't want to be here for it!!! But I think I will be from, not only my normal schedule, 8 am to 7 pm, but until 10 pm. Either I'm greedy and want lots of money or I'm FREAKIN' NUTS for working so much. But hey, it's all approved OT!!! I ain't gonna complain. So it must be the greed factor making me work all these hours!!! lol

I am getting a little depressed, but I've got some good friends here who have offered me their shoulders to cry on and their ears to listen to me. I'm lucky to work with a bunch of wonderful people. It makes turning down the job at Qwest not so hard. I just couldn't work there. It seemed like the people that worked there just had NO PERSONALITY. When I went on a tour of the building, everyone was quiet and kept to themselves. I didn't hear any laughter nor did I hear anyone talking (other than the obvious ones on the phones)! I can't work in a place with no personality. It would be too boring for me. And I would be leaving a bunch of great people here. Maybe if they offered me more than $11.40 an hour I would go. If they offered me at least $15 I'd go, but nothing less. It's not worth my hour commute up & back every day. And, I'd be too far away from my family. I don't think I could handle being that far away from everyone. It would be too hard. So, CP is stuck with me for a while! ¶ 1:19:00 PM