I truly miss my General. I miss being able to have someone to talk to that truly understands where I'm coming from. I wish we could have our Wednesday nights back. I need someone to talk to. I guess I can always blog it & he can respond that way! :)

I don't know what to do about Nate. He & I have been talking. He tells me that he still loves me and still wants to have something with me. But I don't know if I can do that. The last time we "broke up" I wanted to die. He damn near killed me. I'd be a fool to go back to him. But when you know someone is your soulmate, it's hard to deny that you belong together. I still believe that he is my soulmate. But I can't take the heartbreak that our "relationship" has caused me. I was depressed, developed general anxiety disorder. I'm living on Lexapro! I just love him so much. But I love myself even more. I don't know if I can put myself through that again. It affects all those in my life. Directly or indirectly. There were some mornings that I didn't want to get out of bed. And that affected my kids. I can't have that again. I lost them once, I WON'T lose them again. I am just soooo confused. I love the man, but I love my family even more.

General...............HELP!!! What am I to do?
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